Authentic self: This will be my first blog, so I can't promise anything to amazing. I would say to be vulnerable and to let your guard down is not me. I trust no one male or female. I used to see myself as vulnerable but when your in an abusive relationship for me, it changed. Honestly I don't have a clue who the real me is I guess. I try to not be judged so you try and fit in although I wasn't quite good at either. In the 7th grade I was diagnosed with gallstone so they did have to remove it but now my whole body is starting to fail, my kidneys plus cancer and such. I take 42 pills a day so I can function through the day, but along with those prescriptions come with all the side effects. I find my self forgetting the days or I cant remember something when im in the middle of speaking. I guess im still trying to really find out who I am and hopefully one day I can open up to someone again.